I want one.
Instead I have about 5 major projects floating around in my head in various stages of beginning. And these projects are all "other" projects. Meaning they are not things that have anything to do with being a Mom. Though I find it refreshing to need to use my professional mind once in a while, I am remembering that practice only "once in a while" does not make perfect. It always takes me a lot longer to get going when I only do things once in a while.
But once in a while is all I am willing to commit to right now, I have more pressing matters to take care of at home on a regular basis.
I am also remembering that I do not like to be in charge. I like responsibility, I like control, but ultimate control and responsibility; pass, none for me, thank you very much! (perhaps what I mean is I do not like to be in ultimate control when OTHERS are involved because my chances for successful ultimate control are put in jeopardy by those that I am in charge of. I guess it boils down to failure and my fear of it.)
SO instead of getting my mind organized or climbing the dish mountain growing from my sink I am sitting here at my computer penning something about my situation that will not really help my situation. Maybe this can be the first step to getting my mind organized. But right now I have so many thoughts, ideas, lists of 'to dos' floating around in my head that they keep randomly bumping into each other causing confusion. This morning when I went to pick up FL from Preschool I looked in the mirror on the way out and my cheeks were actually flushed from all the project thought.
I have got to get it together. Now don't you turn away and "tsk, tsk" me for being so involved or for complaining about it. I really am not trying to complain. I just need a little time to give all the brain matter a chance to settle a bit so I can put it all in order. Some of my projects won't be getting under way for a few more months some need immediate attention and others just need to be put on the calendar. But it usually works that they all get stirred up in my mind at the same time.
Ok, I took just a moment to write down all the projects. There that feels better. Now I need to go get my calendar and get them all penciled in. Now then. My head is not so fluttery. I think I can move on with my day. Thanks. Sometimes I just need someone to talk things out with and well, the 2 yr. old won't sit still long enough and the 4 and 5 yr. olds, they just don't care much. They would rather I read them a book.
If you will excuse me, I have some work to do!